Recovery Connections

John Schwary is CEO of Transitional Living Communities, an 850-bed recovery program he founded in Mesa, Arizona January 9, 1992, when he had a year sober. He's in his 28th year of recovery.

In these posts, he views life mostly through the lenses of recovery. While the blog is factual, he often disguises events and people to protect anonymity.

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Bad Idea

This summer my wife and I visited the town where I lived with my alcoholic father and his dumpy wife until I was 12 years old. My younger brother somehow survived

Because my father was a violent drunk there was a dread that seemed to permeate the area as soon as I drove into the town. Even though everything was green and fertile there seemed an undercurrent of old memories that might flood the town with stories that would best remain burried.

As I drove through the town there was little that I remembered. The white steeple of the First Christian Church dominated a hillside. A small grammar school still stood behind the church. A dead dog was decaying in the roots of a tree.

If this was a catharsis it was a bad  idea