So why do some of us get sober? And others are never quite able to get to the point where they want to quit.
While I'm not the answer guy, I do have 32 years of living a sober life and so feel qualified to weigh in with an opinion.
I'll start with why I stopped using alcohol and drugs. And the answer is simple. Being drunk and high and paying the consequences for living that way was simply too painful. In my forties I started to realize that I might spend the rest of my life struggling to keep a certain chemical balance and never quite reach that elusive feeling of euphoria that drugs and alcohol sometimes brought me for a short period of time.
I felt like my life was a chemistry experiment. One that I couldn't quite get right. Oh, maybe for a moment I'd feel some kind of a rush or feeling of bliss. But then, it was just as quickly gone and I'd be left to figure out how to get back to where I wanted to be.
That went on and on until I started to realize that what I was doing wasn't working anymore. I was spending most of my time looking for something to steal and sell so I could keep my head in the place I wanted to be. And I never was quite able to get where I thought I needed to be. And no amount of trying got me any closer. And at about that point I began to entertain the idea of getting sober and living a different kind of life. And that's what I did.
Being sober isn't always a bed of roses, but it's 100% better than the way I lived 32 years ago.
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