He had some anxiety about the trip, even though it was only a few days and he was to be in the company of family.
While there he had to travel past old haunts, drug houses where he once used crack. Places that reminded him of his using days.
He said that while he didn't have an urge to use, it was hard to stop himself from looking at these places. Kind of like when one can't keep from looking at a wreck on the freeway.
His visit took him into new territory, dealing with his relatives and children while being clean and sober.
Sometimes he had to use his program to stay out of family business over which he had no control.
It was a revelation to his children that he’d been using since before they were born - some thirty years. They were able to see a different side of him.
On Sunday he was happy to be back at TLC, where he's spent most of his sobriety. And he's also happy about plans made with his family to have regular reunions.
